Princess Kaz!
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Page transcript:
Kaz: I know it’s not the same… but how do you feel about roleplay?
Alex: Like, with sex?
Kaz: Yeah.
Alex: It’s a lot of fun.
Kaz: O-oh yeah? I uh… I got an idea…
Alex: Tell me.
Kaz: I think a princess rescued by a hero could be pretty hot…
Alex: Are you joking?!
I am NOT wearing a dress. No, no, HELL no.
Kaz: No, no, I’m sorry! I’d never ask you to! I was hoping I could be the princess.
Alex: Oh. You naughty boy. I’d love to do that with you.
Wow…Kaz in a dress…I guess he needs to hide his tool. Will he be wearing a gaff?
Nah, you’ll get to see his whole getup though 🙂
Just wondering. I wonder if Kaz will enjoy going out in a dress. Is this going to be the first time?
It’s his first time dressing up!
Nice…I wonder if he’ll love it. One of my boyfriends love dressing up at times.
So I know this is weird but this comic actually really meant a lot to me.
I’m a trans man and one of the things they *don’t* tell you when you start hanging out with other trans guys and to a different extent AFAB NBs is that there’s a lot of self-directed misogyny out there. Like, the idea of having a connection to femininity is utterly repulsive, and I went through that for ages.
Anyway, I love Alex and Kaz and I love how you’re willing to show Alex being a little insecure, showing that little shadow of internalised “Woman = Less good” that’s such a struggle for people exploring masculinity as an adult. It means a lot to me because as I said, I struggled with it and nobody warned me. I had to cut ties with a lot of my transmasc friends who wouldn’t let it go, who saw showing their feminine side as a bad thing. Not that Alex is quite that bad lol, but I appreciate you putting this little moment in, because it shows how we’re all on a journey and it’s not smooth sailing. Love you man.
Thank you for sharing this! It’s absolutely true, a lot of trans guys have a not so great relationship to their own femininity – it takes a while I think to be able to have a healthy connection to it again. Same for trans women and masculinity in some respects. Trans men don’t owe people masculinity, and trans women don’t owe people femininity either. It takes time to understand how we all embody both masculine and feminine in our own ways. There’s nothing wrong with being a masculine guy, but going to the extreme and embodying toxic masculinity doesn’t really help anyone.
Alex felt a lot of pressure when he was younger to be a feminine girl, mostly at the hands of his father, so it’s less to do with misogyny or that women are inferior in any way, and more to do with his own trauma of being forced to be something he was not. Maybe he’ll be okay with wearing a dress one day, and maybe he won’t. That’s okay. Kaz had sort of the opposite experience – he wasn’t allowed to express any kind of femininity or play dress up like this. Both of them are still growing as people, and I thought it was important to show their insecurities and what they’re working on. It takes Kaz some time to grow into his own and find his confidence, and it takes Alex some time to break free of what his father said to him. I don’t plan on this being a super heavy story and get deep into past traumas, but there will be chapters coming up that talk about Alex and Kaz when they were growing up.
Thank you for reading the comic, and thank you for telling me this. Love you too, brother!
being scared of femininity as a trans man is unfortunately so true ;_;
i stopped wearing skirts when i drifted away from hyperfeminity after all of my effort to cling onto womanhood for dear life didn’t work and i realized i wasn’t an enby lesbian but a gay guy after all…
and although me not wearing femenine clothing is now a subculture matter, it does ultimately have it’s root in how i realized being fem-presenting didn’t make me happy.
last year i tried on a miniskirt from an alt shopping mall in my town with my friends and they told me it looked good on me. i thought the same and went “hm, maybe i should start wearing skirts again” but i wouldn’t know how to incorporate it into gyaruo anyways so i haven’t thought about it since LOL
I tried to present high femme for a while thinking that it would make me fit in better or finally be able to be a girl the right way. It didn’t work, obviously. I’m not scared to wear a dress or makeup now, but they don’t really make me happy to wear either. I ended up donating all my makeup to my boyfriend and now he has lotttsss of fun stuff to play with. Haha. It makes me happy to see him getting to express himself the way he likes.
lol funny to see another person who went through the nonbinary-lesbian-to-gay-trans-guy pipeline. i think my lesbianism might’ve been my only tie with femininity internally, or rather not feeling like a guy, if that makes sense (it was only after accepting that i like men and that it was in a “gay way” [stupid i know] that i finally realised that i was a trans guy). i still like some feminine things and wearing feminine clothes (not that i really have a choice though since i’m closeted lol) though admittedly i feel a little less proud of that than i used to when i thought i was an agender lesbian. glad that you were able to feel happy about that skirt though 👍.